I will make it

My mom has a plaque hanging in her house that says something to the effect of "Lord, help me remember that nothing will happen to me today that you and I can't handle together." It helped me to see that. It's a great reminder that I cannot do this on my own. I need to ask for help from people when I need it, but most of all I need to turn to God about it. I don't think I was given endometriosis and PCOS because I am stronger than someone else who does not have it. The Lord will help me through my pain, through my medicine side effects, and anything that comes my way. The road may not be easy, but I know it won't be lonely.

I called my doctor's office today. My first Lupron injection will be tomorrow afternoon. I am nervous about it, but trying to keep in mind that everyone experiences medicine side effects differently. I will just take it one day at a time, and see what comes. I was in Barnes & Noble earlier today (I can't stay away.) walking around looking at the bargain books. All of sudden I had a sharp pain hit me. It felt like someone stabbed me right in my pelvis. I almost feel over. I'm glad that I had stopped (I was on my way back home from my mom's), otherwise I would have been driving when this hit. It seems like I get these pains frequently, outside of the everyday cramping. I really pray that the Lupron helps to relieve my pain. Tomorrow is L-day!

Day 2 After Lupron

I received my Lupron injection on Thursday afternoon. My next one will be in September. So far things have been okay (not great, but okay). I have had a few headaches (although I think some of this is allergies). I have experience some slight nausea as well. The severe pain has really started today. I have spent a lot of the day resting in bed with a heating pad. The medicine that I have helped some. I went to Target and a few other stores this afternoon. I debated before I left if I wanted to actually go. I decided I wasn't going to let the pain keep me at home. When I went I was in a lot of pain and I just wished I were at home. I hate it. I want to be able to do whatever I want to do whenever I want to. I did get some heating wraps that I can take with me if I do go somewhere. I know that my estrogen has increased (which happens with the first couple of weeks with Lupron which causes increased pain) because I have been craving chocolate. lol Again I am just taking it one day at a time, and continuing to pray for the Lord to help me through.

Pain Can Ruin Your Plans

I have things I want to do this summer. I want to go on vacation. I want to take day trips. I want to visit friends. I want to visit family. It hurts for me to stay in one position for too long (especially sitting). My right side (the same that has been hurting for months), really hurts; therefore, it hurts for me to drive for long periods of time (sometimes even shorter periods of time, depending on how much pain I am in at the moment). I am hopeful that around the second week in July I should start getting some pain relief and maybe be able to resume half-way normal activities. Knowing that the Lupron could possibly make my pain worse for the first two weeks makes me nervous. I am not a home-body, and will not enjoy it if my pain is keeping me in. I am trying to have a positive outlook on it. I will be okay. Mind over matter. Chronic pain can affect your mood. From what I have read, many people that suffer from chronic pain also have depression. I know I don't have depression, not even close. I do know that this is affecting my mood. I am trying not to think about some of the things that I may miss this summer and focus on the fact that I may be fine - time will only tell. I can't say that I will be in pain and won't be able to do everything I want to this summer because I don't know. I just know that I'm not off to a good start...